My fingers caressed the rim of my cup as everything blurred out of sight. Another week has passed by and it was the weekend, and Yumi and I met up to catch up. She was talking, but I could barely hear her. There was just so much running in my head. No matter how hard I tried, the voices in my head wouldn't stop talking. I was brought back to my senses when someone tapped me on the shoulder. "Diana!" My gaze focused on Yumi sitting in front of me. "What's on your mind? You've been spacing out ever since we met today," she asked, concerned. "I can't even start," I told her honestly. "Just try." I closed my eyes momentarily, gathering my thoughts.

After a moment of silence, I finally found some way to explain a little of what I was thinking. "School's been great," I mumbled. "Yeah no shit, Sherlock. Tell me what really happened." Yumi said, waving her hand as she took another bite of her chicken nugget. "Well.. You see, it's a couple of things, actually." I stated. She nodded, her eyes telling me I should continue. "For one, Reira is someone I actually feel a connection for, I think we would be really great friends and all but.. She seemed to be a different person when it comes to seeing an eye candy. She's not shy, she's actually got guts and fight her way to earn a friendship or relationship at that," I explained further. "Even though I've known Ayden slightly longer than her, I feel like my friendship is going to be ripped off by Reira." There, I said it. What is Yumi going to think of me now? "Diana, you do know that if you were to let her go all out for Ayden, you ARE going to lose to her?"

My cheeks started warming up and it was definitely not from the hot tea I was sipping. "Yumi, what do you mean by that? You say that as though I would lose something more than just a friendship.." She just rolled her eyes at me."You DO know that it is very obvious by now? Especially the fact that I can read your friggin face like an open book." Yumi let that sit in me for awhile before speaking up again. "You like him, you know you do. Don't fight it anymore. If it makes you happy, just go for it." We got up and left the fast-food restaurant. "I don't know, Yumi. Reira has so much confidence and I know that she could really get to him if she wanted to. Me? I wouldn't stand a chance." I admitted. "Don't say that." she hissed. Then she slapped me on the cheek lightly. "C'mon, just think about it! What are the odds? I'll tell you!" I continued to push my point as we headed to the bus-stop.

"I'll tell you one thing. You should go home and have a short little nap. Think of the odds and think about the possibilities. Only you can make it happen or allow Reira to steal him, you got that?" I nodded and we hugged each other goodbye. The journey home was slower than usual, as my head was filled with so many unlikely scenarios. Gosh, I can't help over-thinking so damn much all the time. I over-think every single thing, it can't be healthy.

I stepped into the comforting warm water, trying to wash my uncertainty away. Still, I couldn't wash the nagging feeling away. Yumi's advice repeated itself to me over and over again. Why am I even trying to deny my own feelings... To myself? I know better than that! It's impossible to lie to yourself. I feel stupid now. I soaped myself up thoroughly and rinsed quickly before wrapping a towel around my body. I stopped by the mirror in my bathroom, staring at myself. There's just no denying it, I told myself. I know that i feel differently for Ayden. I know that he has a special place in both my heart and mind. This I will accept.